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Some scars
don't fade.
They shape us.
Diane B. Ayari spent thirty years learning what love costs. Burning for Love is the account of what she paid — and what she found when she finally stopped paying.
The book, in five scenes
A childhood, three marriages, and the long walk back to herself.
- Scene OneThe First Burn
A house on the Utah plain, the hour before dawn, and a grandfather in a child's doorway.
- Scene TwoThe House Goes Quiet
Four words whispered into a bedroom door, and how few nights were left.
- Scene ThreeA Family I Could Keep
Building the thing she had never been given, out of whatever was to hand.
- Scene FourThe Cost of Staying
Endurance mistaken for love, and the arithmetic of staying anyway.
- Scene FiveA Light of My Own
The hardest question, asked last: what if it had to begin with me?
About Diane
She spends her working life on other people's breathing. She spent her private life learning that endurance is not the same thing as love.
Diane B. Ayari is a respiratory therapist and a first-time memoirist. She was raised between military postings, small-town judgment, and the shelter of her grandparents' ranch — and grew into a woman determined to build the family she had lost.
This is how I learned to love myself.
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